6 weeks

20 Oct

If you asked me to make a bet last weekend on whether or not we’d make it to the six week mark today, honestly? I would’ve bet that we wouldn’t. I would’ve bet against our babies. Which kind of kills me now but I understand it’s only natural to want to protect yourself.

I made a decision though, after the madness of last Wednesday, to start believing in these babies. I’m not ready to download a pregnancy app or start a separate page for pregnancy updates (though I do plan to do both of those things once we see heartbeats). But I am assuming we will see heartbeats. I am actively beginning the process of bonding with and talking to these babies. I’m continuing to tell them to grow, every day.

I have one major and omnipresent symptom that has officially set in and doesn’t seem to want to budge: persistent, all-day nausea. Yep, it’s here. Not so bad that I can’t move and I haven’t lost my lunch yet, but bad enough to just feel like crap all day long. I compared it for DH today to being hung over all the time. On the one hand, it’s reassuring to feel that and know that it’s probably because my hcg levels are sky high. I’m actually surprised I didn’t really feel anything before Wednesday, given my beta that day.

On the other hand, this is tough. I’ve always been very nausea averse. Not that anyone loves it but I really hate it. And I’m deathly afraid of throwing up. This is why I don’t really drink much or get drunk often. If it stays like this, I can probably handle it. But, if it gets worse, I’m really worried. I don’t know how I’ll get myself up and dressed in the morning and fight through an hour plus of traffic, and then sit at my desk all day and smell my coworkers various smells.

Which reminds me, smell aversions. That’s happening too. And diet wise, I’m extremely picky. I feel like I’m mostly eating stuff that’s not great for me but I can’t help it. I mostly crave carb-y things and cheesy things. Things that were so delicious last week (like that pizza and some oatmeal chocolate cookies I made) make me pukey just thinking about them this week. It’s definitely weird.

Meanwhile, the spotting has continued. And it continues to be unnerving but I’m handling it much better now. I’m comforted by the fact that I was also spotting all week last week and yet my babies were growing.  Only time will tell for sure how things will turn out but for now, I’m moving forward with cautious optimism.

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In other news, the Mary Poppins costume came together today! I’m testing it out tonight at our first Halloween party. I’ll try to get a pic if I can!

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11 Responses to “6 weeks”

  1. Kate October 20, 2012 at 10:36 pm #

    Nausea does suck- especially the all day kind. I’m sorry you are feeling that way, but I still hope it sticks around (but doesn’t get worse) for about 6 more weeks.
    Glad you are having more faith in your body and your babies! Grow grow grow, little ones! (And go away, spotting).

    • Kate October 20, 2012 at 10:40 pm #

      Btw… I had the food aversion thing BAD for the entire first trimester. Saltines and peanut butter were my best friends. I was very miserable and very hard to please. (But so happy to be that way!) Try hard (sour) candy to keep the nausea at bay… It’s not great for you, but it does help a little.

  2. sass October 20, 2012 at 11:04 pm #

    Congrats on 6 weeks! I lived day-to-day and week-to-week through the first trimester. During my what-felt-like-millionth ultrasound I finally met a nurse who said she really believed that I wouldn’t have any bleeding after 14 weeks. Somehow I believed her, and she was right. I haven’t had any spotting since 14w2d. I guess that spotting can be a sign of something bad, something good (early) and often nothing at all.

    I hope yours stops soon though. I know how stressful it can be.

  3. Alicia October 20, 2012 at 11:29 pm #

    Aside from the nausea – yay!!!!!

  4. cassiedash October 20, 2012 at 11:51 pm #

    The nausea is hard. The six or eight weeks that it lasts seems more like six to eight years. To get through it, I recommend the same as Kate…sour hard candies. They saved me! Also, never letting myself get too hungry and giving myself a “free pass” from house chores and anything else I could skip (or my husband could do) made those weeks a teensy bit easier. But still…hooray for nausea! A very, very good sign. 🙂

  5. Courtney October 21, 2012 at 12:26 am #

    Great to hear that you’re starting to enjoy this a bit… even if you are feeling sick. Sorry about that part – ick.

  6. Keisha October 21, 2012 at 3:43 pm #

    I craved carbs and fruit. I swear I ate an entire orchard’s worth of apples last fall. Yes, everyone says you should do your best to eat a healthy diet when pregnant, but my doctor told me to eat whatever didn’t make me feel like hurling. Once the nausea passes, you can get back on track.
    Sorry you are feeling crappy, but it’s reassuring at the same time. I’m sure that’s very comforting to you as you choke back the vomit, lol.

  7. Alissa October 21, 2012 at 9:07 pm #

    I’m just so happy for you and grateful that those little ones are sticking around. I know all about the fear surrounding a hematoma and bleeding, but as long as your RE is keeping a close eye on it, things should keep progressing. I’m sorry about your nausea, that must be so hard. These first few weeks are hard, but I know you will fight your way through it. Congratualtions.

  8. AmyG October 22, 2012 at 6:47 am #

    Yay for 6 weeks!!! Hang in there and keep us posted!

  9. JustHeather October 22, 2012 at 12:47 pm #

    Yay for 6 weeks, Boo for all day nausea. I hope it doesn’t stick around for too long, I was fortunate to not have any major nausea, but a very good friend has had it all day, all pregnancy for both pregnancies. So, while I don’t know the feeling first hand (and was beyond grateful), I do have an idea of it and I’m sorry! I too have a horrible fear of vomiting.

  10. sams October 22, 2012 at 3:56 pm #

    Ugh, I’m with you on the nausea. I am 6w1d today and have been having all-day nausea for TWO WEEKS! Today is a better day but I don’t expect it to last long. Nothing sounds good to me to eat…I have to force myself to eat anything I put in my mouth. I just try to remind myself that it’s good for the baby so I must keep eating. As miserable as it is, I’m glad to know I’m not alone in this ickiness.

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